My husband and I were not 'not' trying since the day we married. We knew we wanted children soon, and I had been told I most likely would not conceive without a doctor's assistance. The problem is, they don't like to provide that assistance until you've been trying for at least a year or two.
This is a rainbow baby for us. We lost our first baby in January of 2013 after conceiving in early December 2012. We continued to stay off BC, but used a family planning method to avoid pregnancy as I wasn't ready to go through that again. Eventually we returned to the 'not paying attention' method and I became worried.
When we started looking into doctor-assisted methods, we decided that we didn't want to start off our child's life in even more debt then we already had (house/student loans). We began to start to come to terms with a life without children of our own. Two months later, I peed on a stick and BOOM! Preggo!
I didn't feel comfortable enough to write about anything until we passed the 7 week mark. That's when we lost our first baby. But here we are, week 8!
It hasn't been a stress-free first few weeks, that's for sure. The dates don't quite line up with anything. I'm two weeks earlier according to the ultrasound vs. the LMP. However, I tested positive on the stick on May 31...which puts me at like, 3 days passed fertilization....which is almost impossible.
I had some bleeding around what we -thought- was week 6 so I went into the doctor and he did an ultrasound. We didn't see anything; not a baby, not a yolk or fetal pole, not even a gestational sac. Thinking I should be at 6 weeks along, this was a major concern. I was scheduled for two blood tests to measure the rise in HCG and another ultrasound in two weeks.
My levels did come back as lower than expected, but rising as per a normal pregnancy. However, it could still be ectopic, a blighted ovum, or even a missed miscarriage. I was a nervous wreck, I even had a full-blown panic attack the morning before the second ultrasound.
Thankfully, the morning of our second ultrasound, my husband was able to come with me to provide support. I am so glad he was there because it was the first time we saw our baby! Little blip was in there, with a beautiful little heartbeat. He/she measured at 6+4 (that's 6 weeks, 4 days for those of you out of the preggo internet slang loop). I totally blubbered and freaked out the whole time. It was great. Never has a grainy picture reminiscent of the early days of home video games ever looked so beautiful and amazing to me.
I am officially 8+1 today, and a little scared because a couple of my preggo symptoms have gone away. But I just try to stay positive and keep taking care of myself! I started a pregnancy questionnaire that I will do weekly and I'm going to be posting them here along with anything else I find interesting :)
Thanks for reading!